We are a young couple eager to start a family. We have been trying for 3 years. 2008 and 2009 brought on 2 miscarriages, diagnosis of a uterine septum-4 surgeries to fix (resect), and diagnosis of stage 3 endometriosis. On March 11th God's Plan was revealed to us! Dustin was talking to his 96 year old Granddad and telling him we would find out if we're pregnant the following day...Grandad said..."What would you like a boy or a girl?" Dustin said "I don't care, I just want a baby." Grandad said with a knowing grin "I think it might be twins!" Dustin said "Funny you say that, the doctors say we actually have a good chance of that!" 10 hours later his Grandad died in his sleep. Our doctor called us that afternoon telling us "WE'RE PREGNANT!" 2 weeks later we find out...it's Twins!!! Grandad knew! My testimony came full cirlce! God holds the beginning and end in His hands. This was His Plan! To God be the Glory!!
I believe everything I've gone through the last 3 years happened for a reason. I know I'm a stonger person and most importantly, my relationship with God is so much stronger. I'm in a really "good place" right now. I know at times I may not always be in this "good place", but whatever is to come I will be steadfast in my love for the Lord, knowing that His plan is perfect whether it makes sense to me or not. Please join me on this journey I'm taking to fill my heart's desire of becoming a mother. This blog is a place for me to vent, a way friends and family are kept in the loop, and an outlet to help someone else who has been down a similar rocky road.
Philippians 4:6-7 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
1/09-appt with RE (reproductive endorcrinologist). Bloodwork-normal. Start Clomid cycle #1. Cancelled due to abnormal shaped uterus found on HSG. MRI reveals severe septate uterus.
2/09-Laparoscopy to rule out endometriosis-stage 3 endo found. Cleared out as much as possible. Ablated endometrioma found on left ovary. Hysterscopy-septum resection.
4/09-Hysterscopy revealed mild septate. HSG to compare. Decided to try before having another surgery. Femera Cycle #1-1 mature follicle-BFN
7/09-Femera Cycle #4, menopur injections, 2 mature follicles, trigger shot, 2 back to back IUI's-BFN
8/09-surgery scheduled to remove leftover septate
9/09-hysterscopy-resect septate
10/09-start acupuncture and herbs
11/09-hysterscopy post op shows more scar tissue. Surgery again to remove it. Got as much as they will be able to get.
12/09-IVF consult
IVF day 1: 1/25/2010-CD3 sonogram. 19 antral follicles, small fibroid detected. Given the "go" to start IVF. Took birth control pill and had acupuncure-DONE!
IVF day 4: 1/28/2010-Acupuncture and Moxa treatment-DONE!
IVF day day 8: 2/1/2010-Acupuncture and Moxa treatment. Injection training. 1st Lupron shot-DONE!
IVF day 9: 2/2/2010-Moch Trial Transfer. Bloodwork-DONE!
IVF day 10: 2/3/2010-Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 11: 2/4/2010-Acupuncture and Moxa treatment. Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 12: 2/5/2010-Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 13: 2/6/2010-Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 14 : 2/7/2010-Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 15: 2/8/2010-Acupuncture and Moxa treatment-Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 16: 2/9/2010-Lupron inj.-last birth control pill taken-DONE!
IVF day 17: 2/10/2010-Lupron inj., bloodowork-E2=10.1, no big cysts...given the ok to start stims on Sat!-DONE!
IVF day 18: 2/11/2010-Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 19: 2/12/2010-Lupron injection-DONE!
IVF day 20: 2/13/2010-START STIM MEDS-down Lupron inj. to 5 u, 2 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj.-DONE!
IVF day 21: 2/14/2010-5 u of Lupron inj., 2 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj.-DONE!
IVF day 22: 2/15/2010-bloodwork:E2=114; up dosage to 3 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 23: 2/16/2010-2 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 24: 2/17/2010-3 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 25: 2/18/2010-bloodwork:E2=646; P4=.4;2 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-Sonogram: 15 follicles all measuring around 11mm; lining=5.3, Acupuncture and Moxa treatment-DONE!
IVF day 26: 2/19/2010-3 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-DONE!
IVF day 27: 2/20/2010-Bloodwork-E2=1,307; P4=.6; 3 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-Sonogram: 20 follicles all measuring around 12mm; lining=5.9-DONE!
IVF day 28: 2/21/2010-3 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj. IVF day 29: 2/21/2010-Bloodwork-E2=2,577; P4=1.5; Acupuncture and Moxa treatment; 2 Bravelle inj., 1 Menopur inj., 5 u Lupron inj.-Sonogram: 25 follicles measuring around 15; lining=7.0-DONE!
IVF day 30: 2/22/2010-Bloodwork-E2=3,504; P4=1.5; 5 u Lupron inj., -Sonogram: 25 follicles all but a few a mature size; lining=7.0-DONE!
IVF day 31: 2/23/2010-Ovidrel Trigger shotIVF day 33: 2/25/2010-Egg Retrieval. Retrieved 15 eggs!
IVF day 34: 2/26/2010-Fertilization Report. Out of the 15 eggs retrieved, all 15 were mature, and 10 of them fertilized!!! We have 10 embryos growing!
IVF day 38: 3/2/2010-5 day transfer. Transferred 1 5AA blastocyst, and 1 4AA blastocyst. Froze 6 blastocysts.
IVF day 47:3/11/2010-PREGNANT!!!!! BETA-235!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!
IVF day 49:3/13/2010-2nd BETA-485!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PRAISE GOD AGAIN!!!!!
4/1/2010: Ultrasound reveals...TWINS!!!! Grandad knew it! My testimony and story comes full circle. This was His Plan!!!
6/23/2010: Ultrasound reveals...BOY AND GIRL TWINS!!!! Grandad was right again! Roman Choice and Kaiya Faith we can't wait to meet you!!!!
When you feel battered by life's storms, and you are filled with doubt and dismay; just remember God's rainbow is coming... its only a prayer away.
God is not slow in keeping His promises, as some of us know slowness-2 Peter 3:9
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Thursday, July 15, 2010
Blessings, Birthday, and Bedrest!
I'm dividing this post into 3 separate topics. First, I can now announce my other friend who was keeping everything quite until they went to the Dr. If you remember about 4 months ago when I shared my testimony onstage at church, our worship leader Jeremiah played guitar and sang "How Great is Our God" with me. I'm so so so so happy to announce that they recently went down a similar rocky road to start their family and tried for almost 3 years, and now him and his wife Leslie are PREGNANT!!!!! I've begged and pleaded with God to answer their prayers because they are so deserving and will be awesome parents. I thought it was appropriate to share this video again that was done 4 months ago when I had received my great news, but their prayer had not been answered yet. (you may need to press stop on my play list at the bottom so you can hear) Now "How Great is Our God"!? Even crazier...Jeremiah's grandad passed away the day after they found out, and their baby's due date is the same day as his Grandfather's birthday! Now they have their own testimony to share! I love the part where Jeremiah and I both have our hand raised praising God for what He did and what He was going to do!! Ahhh makes me cry watching it! So awesome!!!
I do still have some friends that are still on their journey to become parents. Today I received a daily devo that hit home and I want to share a few points from it. In James 1:17 we are told that God our Father gives good gifts to us, His children. Not only does He give good gifts, but He knows perfectly what to give and when to give it. His gifts are not spur of the moment because He forgot that a special day was on its way. His gifts are all about perfect timing. Many of us are asking God for help. We are crying out for something we need. The key is, can we wait patiently, trusting that His timing is perfect? Can we trust that He has our best in mind and is working on our behalf? Sometimes we grow impatient. We want what we want and we want it now. So we make the mistake of trying to get it by ourselves. Have you ever tried to get something by yourself? Is there something in your life that you really want...now? Is there one thing you feel if you could have, your life would be complete? If you could just have that job at that pay, life would be so much better. If God would just open your womb, the emptiness would finally be gone. If He would just heal your broken, cold marriage, your heart would be joyful. If He would just fulfill that lifelong dream, you would be content. Are you tempted to get that thing any way you can no matter what the costs? There are times with all of our prayers He seems to answer "no" or at least "not now." It is here, where our desires intersect His will that we have to trust the Father knows best and every gift comes from Him. Every time, in His time, the gift is good and perfect.I have seen God's perfect gifts in my life as I have waited on Him. Waited on Him for a husband. Waited on Him to open my womb. I see my history with Him and I'm going to choose to keep on waiting for His good and perfect gifts. Dear Lord, waiting on You is so hard! My heart wants to get things moving, step up and take action. Help me to always bring my desires to You, knowing that You always have my best at heart. In Jesus' Name, Amen. To my friends (you know who you are) that are trying to conceive, I pray for you daily and know that God's promise will prevail in His perfect timing.
Well I turn 30 this weekend! I never thought I'd be in bed on my birthday but no complaints here! I don't want any presents this year. Roman and Kaiya are the best presents ever and on my 30th birthday!!! Here are some beautiful flowers that my husband got delivered today and the card said from Dustin, Roman, and Kaiya! They brightened my day!!! I got this a while ago to hang in my nursery, and these are their first pictures right before they were placed in my uterus!
This is a picture of me and Dustin when we were 2 years old. I wonder who Roman and who Kaiya will look like?
Beautiful flowers I got today :)
I'm so happy to announce that I'm 22 weeks today!!! Each new week I make I let out a deep breath. Ever since my 21 week appt when they saw my cervix had shortened and started to funnel, I decided to post up in bed and stay off my feet. I figure better safe then sorry and any less pressure you can take off your cervix the better. I moved from the couch to my bed and it was really tough at first. Yesterday he saw me again to do a Fetal Fiber Nectar Swab test and to measure my cervix again. The ffn test is a swab that tests for a certain fluid and if it comes back positive they say there's a 40% chance you could go into labor in the next two weeks. If its negative it's like 1% chance that you would go into labor in the next two weeks. He did the test and said they would have results the next day (today). He then measured my cervix and said that whatever I've been doing has seemed to help! There is still a funnel, but my cervix grew .2 cm measuring at a 4 now instead of a 3.8! He said to keep doing what I'm doing. So home I went and straight to the couch! They called this morning saying the ffn test came back negative so that is more reassurance!!! I'm going to continue being on modified bed rest til they see me again in 2 weeks and they'll perform that ffn test at every appt now. So no church, home group, or leaving the house at all. Dustin said he would videotape church every week for me so I won't miss it. My husband, friends, and family have been great! Dustin is doing the laundry, dishes, cleaning, shopping, and cooking! Today my friend Sara brought me lunch, and then my friend Jen brought me afternoon frozen yogurt! So as you can see this bedrest thing isn't all too bad! Like I've said before, I'll do whatever it takes to make the safest environment possible for my babies.
Here's what's going on with them this week!! They are starting to look like a miniature newborn. Their eyelids, eyebrows, and lips are becoming more distinct. They are now tasting what I'm tasting (they kick when I eat frozen yogurt). They can perceive light light and dark. They say if you put a flashlight up to your belly, your baby might react (I want to try this). They are developing tiny tooth buds beneath their gums. Their eyes are formed. They are about 11.5 inches in length and are up to 1 lb or more each!! Momma has actually stayed the same weight this week weighing in at 22lbs gained! I think its because I don't work up as much appetite now. Please keep praying for my body being a good home for my babies til they are healthy to come out! Below are some pictures of the babies from yesterday and my latest belly pics! Have a wonderful week!
Roman's shot
Kaiya's shot
Kaiya's sweet face
Roman's sweet face
Which one do you think this one is? We're not sure! Since they are right by each other he wasn't sure when he took this if it was him or her...
This is a view of the top of both of their heads right by each other!!
Oh, I am soooooooo happy about the test results!!! Praise God! Happy Birthday love!!!! Looking forward to hopefully seeing you Tuesday... Lunch in bed. ;)
AWESOME, always making me cry!!! CONGRATS to your friends at church, that's so neat :) Hello, Roman, hello Kaiya, yall are growing so fast! Be sweet to momma and let her rest - I love you all so much! P.S. Dustin, good job buddy- keep it up , I know it means a lot to Kacey
Happy birthday!! Beautiful flowers! I've been looking for a good florist so can you tell me where he got them?? Look at you showing off roman's privates in the first picture! Haha their profiles are precious and very different! So exciting glad you are doing well :)
I was on bed rest for 6 weeks with Creighton and 11 weeks with Harper (whimpy cervix, measured 2.2cm at 25 weeks with Harper). IT IS NOT EASY! And I will be praying for you often! But you have the best attitude that bed rest is better than having never conceived at all or having lost your babies already. So keep up the prayer and focus on Him and His perfect plan for you and your treasures! Let me know if you need to vent about the challenges of bed rest...it's not complaining, and I'll totally understand!
Oh, I am soooooooo happy about the test results!!! Praise God! Happy Birthday love!!!! Looking forward to hopefully seeing you Tuesday... Lunch in bed. ;)
ReplyDeleteAWESOME, always making me cry!!! CONGRATS to your friends at church, that's so neat :)
ReplyDeleteHello, Roman, hello Kaiya, yall are growing so fast! Be sweet to momma and let her rest - I love you all so much!
P.S. Dustin, good job buddy- keep it up , I know it means a lot to Kacey
Happy Birthday!!!! Keep taking it easy....so those little peanuts can grow:)
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday!! Beautiful flowers! I've been looking for a good florist so can you tell me where he got them?? Look at you showing off roman's privates in the first picture! Haha their profiles are precious and very different! So exciting glad you are doing well :)
ReplyDeleteI was on bed rest for 6 weeks with Creighton and 11 weeks with Harper (whimpy cervix, measured 2.2cm at 25 weeks with Harper). IT IS NOT EASY! And I will be praying for you often! But you have the best attitude that bed rest is better than having never conceived at all or having lost your babies already. So keep up the prayer and focus on Him and His perfect plan for you and your treasures! Let me know if you need to vent about the challenges of bed rest...it's not complaining, and I'll totally understand!
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