Covered, Protected & Delivered

Wow. What an amazing experience! To this point this has been long (but short); scary (yet peaceful), trying (yet exciting). But the underlined theme that has been constant throughout the last 6 weeks is overwhelming peace. This peace is hard to put into words. Thats because it has been "the peace of God, which transends all understanding that has continually guarded my heart and mind."
(Phil 4:6&7) I strongly know that God will bless us with a child in His perfect timing. I pray that I do not impose my will on God, or bend His will to mine, but rather align my will with His. I pray that - in my prayers and in my life I will see His will, align with it, and rest in it.

As of today you can say that I am PUPO, that is "pregnant until proven otherwise." I have 2 of our precious babies inside of us as I type. On Tuesday morning, the day of the transfer, I woke up and started reading my daily devo. Of course it spoke to me loud and clear! The title of it is Covered, Protected and Delievered.
(How perfect is that?!) And my thought for the day read "All you need to do today is look up and keep your eyes on Jesus - your covering protection and deliverance.

We went to our acupuncture session and headed to the Dr. I knew the embryologist would meet with us first and then Dr Le. I didn't know how many, if any of our embryos made it. She walked in and Dustin was in the bathroom. She asked, "if I wanted to wait for him" I said, "yes." A few moments later I said, "just tell me if there are two we are putting in today?" She said, "YES!" Joy filled my heart! After a few more seconds, I knew Dustin didn't understand what the grades meant so I told her to go ahead and tell me the details. She then handed me a picture of the two embryos. She said, "Here is your first picture for your photo album!" Dustin walked in and I gave the picture to him. He couldn't stop starring at it.
Here THEY ARE!!!

The dark shadow in each circle is the baby. She then says, "they are both blastocysts." One is a 5AA, the other is a 4AA. I couldnt believe it! That is the best grade an embryo can get! On Sunday they were mostly all B's. She then tells me we have 6 other embryos that made it also! They are freezing them so we can give each of them a chance at life in the future! So, out of the 10 embryos that fertilized naturally, 8 of them made it! What a huge blessing! I was so happy, I hugged her! Dr Le came in and said, "WOW! they couldn't be any better and if I was a 29 yr old with a perfect uterus, he would say 80% that I would be pregnant and they would implant," but with me, he cant say because of my uterus. He also believes that it takes divine intervention to make the miracle happen, in any case.


As he was placing the embryos in I was holding Dustin's hand and listening to "Healer" by Kari Jobe, on my IPOD. Talk about a surreal moment (the tears did come) knowing that new life was being put in me and the reality that I could be giving birth to these babies in the same position, holding Dustins hand soon. It was not too painful and only took 10 minutes. Dustin said that "On the Wings of Love" -the corny Bachelor song- was being played on the office radio in the room during this (laughing).

I already love these babies so much...Dustin & I have even guessed the sex of each of them. We have done everything we can and now its in Gods hands. So now I rest. I rest my worries, anxieties, and thoughts. I rest and our babies rest in Gods hands. He has the power. Nothing is impossible for Him. He is my healer. He is all I need.

Thank you for your prayers, I feel them everyday. My ears start ringing at different times throughout eachday :) Thank you for being a huge part of our journey!
Seven DAYS and counting until we test.