I Was Made For You

I know there is a reason and a purpose for the story God has written for me. I know that my calling in life is not to understand the chapter we walk, but to TRUST the Author.

I do know that my story has brought me so much closer to God. It has torn down every wall I used to have up between me and God. I no longer hold any barriers between us. I bodly proclaim my love for Him and tell of His unfailing love for us.

As you know I take thousands of pictures of Roman. So many that I know some people think its too much. I don't and will never apoligize for as many as I take. I want to capture and treasure as many single moments of Roman as I can.

I am so thankful for my journey God has put me through. This has made me be the mother I am. I don't take ANY moment forgranted. I realize how precious every single minute I have with my Son is, and how quickly it can be taken away.

Last week I looked at Dustin and said, "What if the reason and purpose for everything I have gone through to have and hold Roman, is because Roman needed me to be the exact mother that I am now?" I would not be 1/2 the mother I am to him if I hadn't of lived through my story to get him. What if every "line" on my face, and tear that I have cried was necessary for me to be the mother I am, to raise Roman the way he needs to be raised, for him to become the man he is supposed to become?

I also believe that what happened to Kaiya needed to happen in order for Roman to be the man he is created to be. I truly believe Roman is meant for amazing things.

I can not wait to tell him of the mountains we climbed, and the mountains God moved for him to be here. I can not wait to tell him of the heartaches we endured to have him. I can not wait to tell him about his sister and how significant her purpose was and how it was and continues to be fulfilled. I can not wait for him to make her proud.

I can not wait to tell Roman of the Promise God kissed me with. And because of him, the Hope God kissed me with. I can not wait to tell him he is a miracle, and who knows what miracles he will see if only he believes.

I know its no mistake that Roman's name is Roman Choice and Kaiya's name is Kaiya Faith. When I chose Kaiya's name shortly after finding out I was pregnant, I knew the definition of Kaiya meant diamond in the sky, but had no idea of what that would mean to me now. And I always loved the name Faith, but not until now do I realize how perfect her middle name is for her. When Grandad (Choice Pierson) told us he believed we were pregnant, and pregnant with boy girl twins, then unexpectadly passed away in his sleep that night, we knew Roman's middle name was supposed to be Choice. When the preacher closed Grandads funeral with a Roman scripture, we knew his 1st name was supposed to be Roman. We felt it in our hearts. Then to prove his perfect name for him, he unexpectadly came 2 1/2 months early and was born on 9/9, and Romans 9:9 reads- For this is how the promise was stated, when I return Sarah shall have a Son. And he weighed exactly 3 lbs and was exactly 16 inches long. John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. I pray and will do everything in my power that he will live out him and his sisters middle names...Choice and Faith...That every man has a CHOICE to believe. By choosing not to believe, you hold nothing, and that by choosing to have FAITH, you hold EVERYTHING.

Roman has already done amazing things for me in my life. I believe that in order for him to live out his purpose in other's lives, he needed to have me as a mother the way that I have now been "made". I am so thankful for my journey. I wouldn't change a single thing. I trust my Author. Roman, I was "pruned" for you. I am the Real Vine and my Father is the Farmer. He cuts off every branch of me that doesn’t bear grapes. And every branch that is grape-bearing he prunes back so it will bear even more-John 15:1-2 I was made for you.

When I look at you I catch my breath, I lose my mind for a moment. When I look at you, I can't believe how can it be, you're so perfect.

God kissed me with a Promise. God kissed me with a Hope for a future. Your beauty it looks like righteousness. I'm in love with Roman, little man, little boy, little son, I'm in love with you. When I think of You, I fall to my knees, and I lift my voice and I worship.

The song that is playing speaks to me. My story wouldn't mean anything if I didn't have anyone to tell it to. Don't get me wrong, I love sharing my story with others; but what if the TRUE purpose of my story is to share with Roman. I may not ever know the purpose of my journey for sure but I trust my Author, and give all glory to Him. Thank you God for my story, and thank you for entrusting me with Roman's story.

Roman already looks up at me every day with his big trusting innocent eyes. In years to come, when Roman looks up to me with those same big trusting eyes, I promise to tell him of Your unfailing love.

I can not wait for Roman to tell his own story. Until he can, I will write his Foward or Introduction for him with pictures!

I think Kaiya was visiting him in his dreams below. He kept smiling in his sleep.




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