When Life Throws You a Curve Ball

This was the best illustration I could come up with with what we witnessed today. The direction of the air flow, and high pressure and low pressure, direction of spin, and the path if the ball! Just when I think my God can't suprise me or bless me anymore for the time being, He proves me wrong! Well Roman won't be playing baseball with his brother...if he's a nice brother he'll play barbies sometimes with his SISTER!!!! Yes that's right, we found out today at our 19 week appt that the Dr. was wrong and we are having 1 BOY AND 1 GIRL! Introducing Roman Choice and Kaiya Faith!!! My family has always said that I try to control EVERY little thing. Right when I thought I had this all under control...I ordered my baby bedding, bought A LOT of matching boy clothes, ordered bassinets and got their names monogrammed on a lot of items we get this news! Dustin was with me at the appt, and we were shocked to say the least! It's still setting in for him, but I haven't been able to stop smiling all day long!!! You should see all the girl clothes I have bought throughout the years of us trying to concieve. My families words were..."God is the only one who can put Kacey in her place and show her that she can't control EVERYTHING! HILARIOUS!"

The most special thing is that Grandad before he died said we were pregnant with twins and it would be a girl and a boy!! When I called my cousin today (she has not stopped saying that the 1st sono was wrong and that I'm having a boy and girl) I asked her..."so have you had any more feelings lately?" She said "Kacey I'm sorry but I really don't think its 2 boys...I really think its a boy and a girl!" I said "Well you're right!!!" Another cool thing is my friend called me and said she had a dream a couple of days ago that I told her that the sono was wrong and that its was a boy and a girl.

What an unbelievable blessing! Don't get me wrong...I was very excited about 2 little boys, but my gut all along has told me a boy and a girl. Please make note of the song that's playing is about a little girl. The next song is for our little boy. Below are the letters Dustin and I wrote to our boy and girl (back when we didn't know what they were).

(From Dustin)
Dear Roman and Kaiya,
Wow! I do not know what I have done to deserve such a blessing! Your mom and I have tried for three years to have one child, but I guess God thought after all that work he would give us the ultimate gift, a son and a daughter, at the same time! I know that as you two grow older you will learn many times what it feels like to want something that you cannot have. But when it comes to wanting to be a parent and not succeeding its, well its just different. Now although it has been a very long, tedious, emotional, and expensive, oh and did I mention expensive process I wouldn't change it for the world. You see when you want something you cannot have, you begin to want it even more. You will start to notice more people with it, and it seems to get more popular the longer you go without it until just about everyone you know and see have it (even people that you would never think would even want the same thing you want, oh yes they got one too)! But to want to be a mother and a father, that's different. You don't want it more beacuse your friend is a mom or a dad and it looks cool. You want it because the longer you go without it, you realize what a blessing, wow what a miracle. Man God is Awesome! And so with that said I just want to say thank you friends and family for all your prayers, and thank you God for answering them. So Roman and Kaiya, welcome to this family and as you two will quickly see, you are so loved, so wanted, and such an awesome blessing!
Love, Dad


(From Me)
Dear Roman and Kaiya,
Wow a boy AND girl! You are such a blessing to us! I prayed for you every day for years and years! I already feel like the luckiest person alive to have you two growing in my tummy. We've gone through every name on the face of this earth and found what we feel is your perfect names. Roman-if we were blessed with a boy we always said we would name him Roman. Your middle name Choice was Grandads name. Your father Dustin is a spitting image of who Choice was. Choice told us he believed we were pregnant and pregnant with twins and that they were a boy and a girl before we knew we were even pregnant! After he told us this that night the Lord took him in his sleep. Hours after he passed away we found out we were pregnant! Two weeks later we found out it was twins! Grandad somehow knew. God holds the beginning and the end in His hands. Kaiya-your name means diamond in the sky. We sponsor a little girl named Marie who lives in Congo Africa. The program we sponsor her through is called World Vision. Their symbol is a diamond in the sky. Your due date is her birthday! Your middle name Faith is the middle name we've always wanted our little girl to have. Our faith in God and that His promise would prevail NEVER wavered from our hearts. By grace you are saved through FAITH, not by yourselves; it is a gift from God-Ephesians 2:8. Both of you have already made me the happiest mother on earth. God has a special purpose for each of you. I wouldn't trade the hard journey we went through to have you for the world. We tried over and over to plan for you. One day we realized, it wasn't our plan it was GOD'S PLAN. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation for the things they are blessed with are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I know you will struggle at times in life, but my prayer to you is that you keep your eyes on the Lord and surrender to Him because His will for you will never take you where His grace will not protect you. Having gone through everything we went through to have you, I will NEVER take ANYTHING forgranted about the blessing of being your mother. I will notice everything about you. I willl take time to watch you sleep, explore and discover. I will actually be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of you crying, knowing I can comfort hold and feed you, and know that I'm not waking up to take my temperature, pop another pill, take another shot, or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself blessed that God has given me this insight , this special vision with which I will look upon you with. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, a better friend and neighbor because I have known pain. The love I have for you is indescribable and I can't wait to see life again through your eyes and become a family. You have the best Boppy, Grammy, Nana, and Papa anyone could ever ask for. You also have the best aunts and uncles and cousins who cannot wait to meet you. I will marvel at this incredible miracle everyday for the rest of my life! Glory be to God!!
With unmeasurable love,
Your Mommy